How To Survive A Faith Crisis

Podcast #107


With Christian leaders like Joshua Harris and Marty Sampson publicly walking away from the faith, Jason gets real and shares the story of his own loss of faith and how God never let him go.

Jason Houtsma serves as Worship Pastor for Mosaic Church in Bellingham, WA, Husband to Alli, Father to Bjorn and Asher, and guitar instructor for

How To Survive A Faith Crisis

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I needed to here this......

I am not a worship leader.....I am not a pastor.....I am just a regular guy who enjoys the music....
But this was the first WA podcast that I listen to in its entirety. I am 62, married to my lovely God fearing wife (+35 years...WOOT!), but I am struggling as well. Where are You!!....Is my faith solid? Am I saved.... Am I still going to church - I still I into His word - no.....Do I pray to
Do I need to get quiet with Him.....yes.....Psalm 46:10a. "He says, "Be still, and know that I am God"".......

Thank you for sharing....I know it was hard.....but oh so needed. Not only for yourself, but for the rest of us. Thank you for your prayers.

You are definitely not alone

and I will pray for you. It's a hard place to be but I firmly believe God is with you in the midst of it. He will not let you go and He will only prove Himself faithful.

Thanks so much

Thanks, Jason. Definitely something I really needed to hear. There are times when I doubt and I'm almost afraid to explore that for what I might find. I appreciate your words of just reaching out to God as much as I can...something I haven't really been doing a lot of over the years. Again, thanks.

Thank you

Jason, thank you so much for making this episode and sharing your personal struggle. I know this podcast will resonate with many people who are going through a similar season as well as equipping others who are walking alongside people who are going through the same thing. Thank you for mentioning "In Quietness & Confidence" by David Roper. I plan on taking a look at that one. I am praying for you. Keep up the great work!

Such a great book!

And your prayers are appreciated and felt. Thank you.

To Know HIM Better

Hey Jason. Longtime subscriber, first time commentor (as it would be said). Thank you for bearing your soul on this issue. Being transparent helps us all in many ways, which re-enforces the notion of "Not Going Thru This Alone". I'm a 49-year old Husband, Christian Rock Musician, and Music Director at my church (kinda sorta a Worship Leader). As of recent, I have been dealing personal struggles of faith. Having came to the LORD at the tender age of 18, having studied the word and fatihfully sat under sermons and teaching about the LORD, one would assume they have understood how God functions. After 30 years of walking with God, I never realized how wrong I was about that. In short, my life was like a Job experience, Thinking you had it right but in the end not in right standing. That lead to frustration in my life, my marriage, and my ministries. I even got so frustrated at church one day that my reaction landed me in the Pastor's office and getting placed under Pastoral Discipline. After a time being angry and venting in my prayer closet, I was given a word of knowledge by a visiting Pastor (not knowing who I was) for me to stop what I'm doing, stop serving, and get back to being intimate with the LORD! At that moment, I realized I got so wrapped up in the work, I forgot about the ONE who created the work. At that point, I began the break down and weep uncontrollably at the altar. Thank God for His great mercy upon us and his healing grace. Weeks had gone by after that, my prayer life was better, I more listening than praying, and my anger began to dissipate. Today, I glad to report that my Music Director position has been restore, my relationship with them that were effected by my actions are in the healing process, my relationship with my wife is better, and doors for my rock band are opening once again. The conclusion that I was able to draw from is this, "We should not only desire to know Him more, but know HIM better". Again Jason, thank you for sharing your story and helping us to help each other.

Each Story is the same only different

I listen to your podcasts when I'm doing mindless work, where I don't have to worry about hurting myself because I don't have 100% focus on safety and can listen. It's been a busy fall and I was putting away tables and chair this morning from a funeral dinner at church yesterday. Your FAITH CRISIS episode brought back some memories (I'm twice as old as you). I've had other questions too, along the way, just not understanding how or why God works the way He does. But if we were to "give up" this faith in the unseen, where would we turn to or what would we become?
Thank you for sharing your story. It was a blessing. Forge ahead.